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24 September, 2009

Listening to Akon in the Desert, on CMU’s Study Abroad Site

Filed under: CMU news, CMU-Qatar — Webmonarch @ 12:24 pm

Sometimes I spend months working to build one more positive reference into my web presence. Sometimes it happens all of a sudden! Yesterday a CMU student abroad coordinator emailed the list of students who had studied abroad (as I did when I visited CMU-Qatar last semester, and as I will do again when I live there next semester) for their blog posts. I sent her this one, called “Listening to Akon in the Desert”. Illustrated with one of my favorite photos of myself, taken by CMU grad-student Patrick Gage, this post tells about my awesome experience “duning” in Qatar. Check it out!

Inspirational Quote:

“Every day I walk out into the world / to be dazzled, then to be reflective,” Mary Oliver

3 September, 2009

Arabic Meetups in Pittsburgh?

Filed under: CMU news, CMU-Qatar — Webmonarch @ 11:21 pm

I am gleefully taking Arabic I this semester. Because I am having so much fun taking it, I was thinking about attending/forming an informal Arabic chat group. Thankfully, I found one! If I end up going, I will post a review here. Anyone know of any others?

I initially signed up for Arabic because I wanted to have a working understanding of the language before traveling to CMU-Qatar next semester. Now I love the cognitive dissonance of writing right to left, the smooth cursive of the letters, and the experience of learning a language so different than anything I know. It is so cool!

Inspirational Quote:

“If you only have a hammer, you tend to see every problem as a nail.”–Abraham Maslow

31 August, 2009

Back from DC (and, 3 Arabic greetings I learned this week)

Filed under: CMU news, CMU-Qatar — Webmonarch @ 12:28 am

I just got back from DC, and boy was I surprised: my Amtrak train (the Capital Limited) was absolutely on-time both coming and going. It was delightful. Here is what I am taking this semester:

  • Historical Evidence and Interpretation
  • 20th Century United States History
  • Global Justice
  • Eurhythmics I
  • Basic Solfege I
  • Basic Harmony I
  • Voice Minor Studio
  • Arabic I
  • Repertory Chorus

I was treading water, but got all of my work for Monday done before I left Saturday. Next week I hope to be swimming more than treading (and absolutely avoid drowning). I make a commitment today to get something up here every day for the next week. Here are three Arabic greetings I learned this week:

  1. Mar Haba (informal hello)
  2. Sabah al-Kheir / Sabah al-Noor (formal hello, call and response)
  3. Salam Alaikum / Wa-Alaikum Salam-ah (formal, religious hello, call and response)

Oddly enough, the “Wa” and “ah” for the response are only found in Modern Standard Arabic, ie, academically taught Arabic. When students at CMU-Q taught me hellos, they said it was:

  1. Salam Alaikum / Alaikum Salam

Hoping to learn more of these cool factoids this week! Now, sleep.

Inspirational Quote:

Robert Byrne – “The purpose of life is a life of purpose.”

21 August, 2009

Back from The Lair (and a CMU-Qatar show at The Frame)!

Filed under: CMU-Qatar, news — Webmonarch @ 10:23 am

I am back from The Lair. I sang “Losing My Mind” by Stephen Sondheim for the Blue Review (the weekly talent show) and played a good Cal vampire fighting bad Stanford vampires. I also did some great hiking. Photos later.

I am marching my way through my email cue. If I haven’t gotten back to you, I will be tonight at midnight EST. Thanks for your patience! If you are in Pittsburgh, head over at the Frame, a student art gallery on Carnegie Mellon’s Campus. The IMPAQT group is hosting an show of images and artifacts from our trip. It is exciting!

I am super-excited about today’s FanFiction Friday post. It will be up this evening!

Inspirational Quote:

“There is new life in the soil. There is healing in the trees for tired minds and for our overburdened spirits, there is great strength in the hills, if only we will lift up our eyes. Remember that nature is your great restorer.” –Calvin Coolidge

11 August, 2009

How to Dress for Success in Qatar?

Filed under: CMU-Qatar — Webmonarch @ 4:35 am

I have been thinking a lot about how I will dress in Qatar next spring. While visiting the middle east last spring break, I saw a huge range in women’s clothes. I know that some visiting CMU-P students just wear the same clothes they wear in the US, and don’t feel uncomfortable. A minority of ladies at CMU-Q also wear western clothes, and a stronger minority wear headscarves and conservative style clothes, and all the other ladies wear abayas with varying combinations of black hijabs and niqaabs (spelling may vary for this word–perfect for ballistic spellers like me).

I have worn a hijab before, and usually dress fairly conservatively. However, I believe I will have a stronger experience during my study abroad if I pass as normal at first glance, rather than clearly being a clueless westerner. My observation while in Qatar was that women were afforded more instant respect and deference in direct relation to how conservatively they were dressed. A woman in jeans was ignored more easily than a woman in a kaftan, who is more easily dismissed than a woman in a black abaya. In the United States I have experienced the exact same thing: everyone from sales clerks to professors pay more attention to me and treat me better when I am conservatively dressed (black suite-coat and slacks) than when I am not (ratty jeans and a sleeve-less t-shirt).

I want to be treated well in Qatar, and am willing to dress differently to achieve this goal.

Clearly shorts and skimpy shirts are out of the question for public wear, but I am struggling to decide how far I want to go. I think I would be comfortable in a long skirt or dress, and loose-fitting, long-sleeved or 3/4 sleeved shirts. Maybe I will wear my abaya for special events (perhaps those where I would wear a full suit in the west).

I had a wonderful conversation with a muslimah on Greyhound about the meaning of religious head coverings for men and women last week. We talked about two reasons to cover: one is to show and to feel submission to God, and the other is modesty and protection from men. I do not think I will cover my hair at school. If I believed that was what God* wanted, I would submit and cover. However, that is not what I believe is necessary, so I will take the stares and the slight lessening of respect from strangers in Qatar rather than cover.

Of course, in a mosque I will cover out of respect in the same way I wear a yarmulke in a conservative friend’s temple, and if I am going somewhere I particularly do not want to attract attention, I am quite tempted to don my black niqaab as well. It will be like being Zorro.

However, for everyday wear, I have been toying with what I should buy to pass in the middle east (note: all links in this paragraph go to women-owned stores from this list). Should I buy a gloriously colorful Sharqyat? A Jilbab-style shirt to wear over my normal jeans? A nice, conservative suit? Right now, I am pretty partial to a women’s Thoub (note difference from Thobe, a piece of men’s clothing) paired with a good, opaque, undershirt.

There is one fashion trend I cannot conform to while in Qatar: sparkly shoes. All of the ladies I saw wore the sparkliest, trendiest shoes I have ever seen: multi-colored sequins and rhinestones abounded. Shoes, purses, sunglasses and jewelry are accessories which conservative Muslim ladies carry with impunity. But I will not conform. I am too much of a grimy geek to dress that way. No matter how conservative, my pants must stand up to baking-smudges, my shirts to push-ups, and my shoes to mud and taking the stairs two at a time. Anything else will not work, because not matter where I am, I am who I am.

*Assumptions about my faith based on this pronoun are probably wrong. God is simply a convenient word for who I see in the divine.

Inspirational Quote:

“Islam does not say whether a woman can wear trousers or not. The clothes I was wearing when the police caught me – I pray in them. I pray to my God in them. And neither does Islam flog women because of what they wear. If any Muslim in the world says Islamic law or sharia law flogs women for their clothes, let them show me what the Qur’an or Prophet Muhammad said on that issue. There is nothing. It is not about religion, it is about men treating women badly.”–Lubna, a Sudanese Muslimah in the news for wearing pants

6 August, 2009

Introducing CMU-Qatar (3 Videos and 2 Slide Shows)

Filed under: CMU news, CMU-Qatar — Webmonarch @ 2:28 pm

This week I am ramping up my before school planning. I’m working on coordinating some photo shows for IMPAQT, working on a panel for CMU’s pre-law society, and thinking about moving into my new house. IMPAQT will have a neat show on August 21st at The Frame, a funky CMU art gallery. The show will include Karak (the amazing Qatari tea I am in love with), some of our abayas and dishdashes on display, and some cool multi-media shows. In looking for videos and photo slideshows for the show, I found these.

When we were in Qatar, CMU-Q students put together and taught several evenings of amazing classes, a series which was called Qalta. Here is a student-created video summary of Qalta (see me in the martial arts class and in the Islamic Feminism class):

These two are Carnegie Mellon-created videos. A time-lapse video of CMU-Qatar campus being built:

An introduction to CMU-Qatar’s campus and culture with student interviews. Watching this this morning, I recognized and could name at least 1/3 of the students. CMU-Qatar is a small, intimate and energetic Carnegie Mellon Campus. I can’t wait to go next spring!

In addition to our gallery show, we will be putting up shows of our photography in several dorms. I’ve posted images from that show before, but I recently have discovered the joys of flickr slideshows. Here is a great collection of photos of the CMU-Qatar campus.

And for anyone who does not know where Qatar is, or what it looks like, here is the cool flickr slideshow.

I do not know if anyone else does this, but when I am curious about a state, I go to flickr, type in the relevant terms, and flip through a slideshow of pictures from that state. Utah has some lovely mountains which I would not have discovered without this technique.

Inspirational Quote:

Abraham Joshua Heschel – “Wonder rather than doubt is the root of all knowledge.”

7 June, 2009

Free Arabic Class in Washington DC

Filed under: CMU-Qatar, Friedman Internship, Washington DC — Webmonarch @ 4:25 pm

I had a wonderful experience starting to learn Arabic yesterday at the Islamic Center in Washington DC. Most of the Arabic courses I found would cost between 300 and 1000 dollars for the summer, and the times do not fit my schedule. After a great deal of searching, I found this Saturday Arabic class and this Sunday class. I decided on the Saturday class. Looking over the Islamic Center’s website, I got a little nervous. I didn’t want to wear a suit jacket (my conservative dress solution when I was in Qatar) on a Saturday, but did not have other conservative clothing to wear.

My roommate was a little appalled that I was willing to change how I looked just to go to an Arabic class. I tried to explain that the point of me going to the class was not to be shocking, it was to learn Arabic. And if people in the class felt uncomfortable because I was wearing a sleeve-less shirt and shorts, that would get in the way of my studying Arabic. She saw it as a weird attempt to fit in with people whose opinions I didn’t even know. I have had a lot of friends think this.

I am pretty sure I would have been bothered more in the past by feeling compelled to dress a certain way. But last summer, I spent 2 days a week wearing a suit, hose and leather pumps to fit the expectations of an internship–and I will go on the record saying that I would rather wear a shirt with 3/4 length sleeves and even a head scarf than wear a full suit and pumps on a Saturday. Especially since the Islamic Center is about a mile away from the nearest Metro, it is is hot and humid in DC. At least conservative Islamic dress is comfortable.

I finally decided to wear CMU-Q shirt, sort of a baby-doll t with the phrase “Carnegie Mellon Qatar” in both Arabic and English, and one of my scarves from Qatar to cover my bare arms if necessary. The walk up Massachusetts Ave near DuPont (also known as Embassy Row) was a little hot, but mostly it was fascinating. I saw the Zimbabwe Embassy, the Chinese Embassy, the Argentinian Embassy, and tons of smaller embassies at which I did not take time to look. The architecture varied from row-houses to Victorian mansions with carriage drives, to ugly, utilitarian block buildings (I think that was the Chinese Embassy). If you use Google Street View you should be able to see what I’m talking about.

I had been walking for about 20 minutes and was getting worried I had mixed up the numbers of the street address when I looked up and saw a soaring minaret. Aha! I thought, and felt a little nostalgic for Fanar, the Islamic Cultural Center in Doha, Qatar. It feels weird to miss a place so suddenly when I only visited it for a week. I saw a tub of Tabbouleh at Whole Foods, and teared up a little. I totally went into a Middle Eastern coffee shop in downtown Palo Alto just for the smell. On the news, every time I see men in dishdashes or see a minaret, I feel a little tug under my ribs.

Through a gate in the tall black-iron fence around the Islamic Center, I walked purposefully around was looked to be the remnants of a wedding party. Finding a door marked “Administration”, I poked my head in and asked where the Arabic class was. Passing a door with rules for the Mosque–”4. Women Will Please Cover Their Heads Inside the Mosque”–I went down some external stairs into the basement of the mosque, jerking my scarf over my head. I nervously looked in and, without actually entering the mosque, asked the first woman I saw (a white woman with a Alice Blue head-scarf) if I needed to cover. She said “No, you’re fine”. I put my scarf back on my shoulders and went inside.

The basement was an open floor plan, with space for a classroom divided off with a white-board and a partial wall. There were two columns of old-style wooden school chairs (ones where the desk portion is fixed). There was one woman in the left column and about five men in the right. I sat with the woman, and waited to see what was going on. She looked Indonesian, with that country’s signature white head-scarf and small pattered loose, long-sleeved, ankle-length dress. There was a large man in a dishdash at the front of the classroom. The woman next to me asked him if he had married the couple up stairs, and he said he had. I guessed he was an Imam, though I don’t know for sure.

As the class wandered in and began, it turned out it was in its final weeks, having started in January. The majority of the free beginners Arabic class had been coming fairly regularly, and had brought sentences in Arabic to read aloud to the class. Thankfully, there were quite a few people, men and women, who were here for the first time

The room was purposefully gender divided–men on the right, women  on the left. The teacher seemed to know most of the students, and called on women as often as men, making sure the quieter ones (women) participated and the louder (men) waited their turn. All of the women were covered, except for me. There were three women who chatted in French and looked African, one woman (the first I had sat next to) who looked Indonesian or Malaysian and spoke English with no accent, and a few other women who sat behind me who I didn’t get a chance to look at. None of the men covered their heads, except for one man who looked African and spoke with what I think was an East African accent. There were several white men there who seemed to be taking this for either school or work.

Realizing that I would not be able to follow most of the lessons (which involved word choice) the teacher assigned the other newcomers and I to work on copying down the alphabet. Since there are 3 forms for each letter (one for when it is at the beginning of a word, one for the middle and one for the end of a word). Copying from a chart on the board, working right to left in the notebook in columns, I copied a letter and its forms about 15 times each. By the end of class I had just finished Sin, about 2/3 of the way through the Arabic alphabet.

At the end of the lesson, I went up stairs and bought the textbook. Flipping through it on the Metro out of DuPont, I found it was focused on teaching Arabic as part of teaching Islam. Most of the advanced exercises involve copying prayers or verses from the Koran. However, the earliest stuff is what I need to worry about, and all of that is how to form letters, basic words, stuff like that.

I very much look forward to going to class next week, hopefully with two of the legal interns from work who want to work on their Arabic (they should probably be in the Advanced section which meets at a different time, but I think we will all go together to the beginning session) and some other Friedman Fellows.

When I next go, I will probably try to find a long-sleeved shirt, though I don’t think I will cover my head. I find it weird that Muslim men in the US don’t cover when the women do. In Qatar, the vast majority of the Qatari men I saw had their heads covered, since it was out of respect for God rather than a gendered thing. In the US, most of the men dress in t-shirts and jeans, while the women are wear loose-fitting clothes and scarves. I think I would have been ok covering if the men were covering, but since they’re not, I won’t.

Oddly, I am not bothered by the gendered seating in the classroom. I think if the teacher had refused to call on women, or had been harder on them than the men, I would have minded. But he seemed just as fair, interested and engaged with the women as he did with the men. Perhaps it is that I spent the last week reading about women who are sold in marriage by their fathers to older men in exchange for furniture, or women whose mothers subject them to FGM and other tortures for the future sexual please of their husbands. Right now I don’t feel outrage that my in beginning Arabic class women have to sit on one side of the room and men on the other, as long as we are treated the same. There are so many bigger fights to pick.

I will be going back–anyone want to join me?

Inspirational Quote:

Acts of injustice done
between the setting and the rising sun
In history lie like bones,
each one.– W. H. Auden, “The Ascent of F6″

29 May, 2009

“In Search of Islamic Feminism”: revealing, deeply educational, a great vacation

Filed under: CMU-Qatar — Webmonarch @ 1:43 am

In Search of Islamic Feminism: One Woman's Global Journey

In Search of Islamic Feminism: One Woman’s Global Journey by Elizabeth Warnock Fernea

I have been talking about this book with a lot of people, many of whom looked at the title and said “isn’t that a contradiction in terms?” I usually then go into a mini-lecture on “family feminism”, that is, feminism which promotes women’s equal power within the family, and her public equality with men as a way to further the family. It is an intriguing viewpoint, in contrast with the usually individualist and sometimes gender-combative approached taken in Western feminism.

This was an intense read covering nine countries with sizable Muslim populations (Uzbekistan, Morocco, Kuwait, Turkey, Egypt, Iraq, Saudi Arabia, Israel/Palestine, the US); globally important women working to support further women’s social, legal and political rights; and dozens of detailed interviews. In nearly every nation, women identified the prime problems facing women as: education, divorce law, and inheritance law. These issues existed in terms of sharia, local meshings of traditional local family law and sharia, and fairly straight secular law. Heavy swimming, but neat information.

This is part of my long-term research for my semester abroad in Qatar at Carnegie Mellon’s campus there. I *will not* be an ignorant American if I can help it

Inspirational Quote:

JUSTICE ALITO: Well, the school could keep records on its students, like the police keep records on confidential informants. So if — unless this student

had a proven record of having accurately ratted out a certain number of classmates in the past, she couldn’t be believed.

MR. WRIGHT: Except that, Your Honor, there’s a different incentive here. Students can be disciplined if they — if they tell tales. And so if she tells a lie she faces the risk of discipline. In addition to that, there was evidence that these kids were friends, and he had reason to rely on that. He had

reason based on their association at the opening dance. He had reason to believe that because –

JUSTICE STEVENS: What discipline did the tipster receive? What discipline was the erroneous tipster given?

MR. WRIGHT: Oh, there was no discipline that I know of in the record, Your Honor. It’s not in the record and I do not know.

20 May, 2009

True Images of the Middle East

Filed under: CMU-Qatar, news — Webmonarch @ 12:45 pm

I’ve spent a lot of time this past year learning to take compelling photos. Headshots are my favorite, because I think who a woman (or man) is shows in his face in a good picture.

When I returned from Qatar, I was immediately upset by the strangeness of the images I found describing the Middle East. I saw TV shows with terrorist line-ups featuring men in thobes, as if the head-dress itself was a sign of Islamic Extremism. The only male head covering that I think is always a sign of extremism is a Raiders cap.

In returning to the US I had trouble finding any images of the Middle East that described my experience there. This week, being done with school and having some free time, I searched around flickr and found these 3 photos which I think are good representations of the culture (Arab, Muslim, Gulf, Middle Eastern) that I saw in Qatar.

Here is the only photo I can post here, because the photographer has kindly placed it under a Creative Commons License.

The other two photos are quite lovely, just unpostable. The first is of two little girls, one wearing a Hello Kitty shirt which matches her hijab headscarf. The other is of a little boy wearing a thobe.

I think these photos let even people unfamiliar with Middle Easter dress see how normal and natural it is in context. A nikab may look extreme, but mini-skirts look extreme as well. It’s just a matter of context and comfort.

Inspirational Quote:

(Speaking of extreme…Justice Breyer on the propriety of a principal ordering a 13 year old girl trip-searched because she was accused of carrying aspirin by a classmate who was caught with aspirin. From the oral arguments of Safford v Redding)

JUSTICE BREYER: [...] In my experience when I was 8 or 10 or 12 years old, you know, we did take our clothes off once a day, we changed for gym, okay? And in my experience, too, people did sometimes stick things in my underwear –
(Laughter.)
JUSTICE BREYER: Or not my underwear. Whatever. Whatever. I was the one who did it? I don’t know. I mean, I don’t think it’s beyond human experience, not beyond human experience.

22 April, 2009

Women and Safety in Qatar (or, one of my many writing samples)

Filed under: CMU news, CMU-Qatar — Webmonarch @ 1:37 am

I wrote this as a writing sample for an internship (one I did not get); however, it is still a good piece of writing and I wanted to share it.

Strolling through the Villagio in Doha (Qatar), my host, a senior at Carnegie Mellon University-Qatar, tells me that she sometimes covers her entire face with her veil when in a crowd of men because being bare-faced “was like being raped with their eyes.”

By tying being safe to being covered, she implies that when men make her feel unsafe, her only recourse is to hide. This stuck with me on my flight back to Pittsburgh.

As a woman, a United States citizen, and a black-belt in Shito-Ryu Karate Do, I feel safe in most public places. I know I can cause enough damage to escape from nearly-all women and most men if I am attacked. I also know most people on any given street would try to help me, and that the law is on my side.

The idea that men can hurt women and all that women can do is hide or be protected is not unique to Doha. I have heard it argued by female students at Carnegie Mellon-Pittsburgh. I have heard it in advice from police, who tell women not to fight back if they are mugged or raped, because their attacker will only hurt them more.

As captain of my high school wrestling team, I know how much damage a woman can do to a man. However, in my experience, women are sometimes taught they cannot fight back effectively not because it is true, but because this idea confirms something we “know” about men and women in a society.

I want to make clear that my host’s need to cover herself with her veil in public does not make her veil part of the problem. Her veil was not oppressive—it was a voluntary expression of modesty. Nor do I think her feeling of vulnerability comes from being a Muslim woman. I am absolutely no expert, but in the seminar on Islamic Feminism which I attended at CMU-Qatar (taught by a CMU-Qatar student) I came to think that many of the gender assumptions I saw in Qatar come from Gulf culture rather than Islam. To my knowledge, there is nothing in Islam which says a woman cannot successfully defend herself from an attacker.

As upsetting as it was to hear my strong, smart host tell me how unsafe she felt in public, I was more bothered by my family and friends’ reactions to this story when I came home to the US. They blamed Islam and Arab culture which in my brief stay (except for issues surrounding women’s safety) I had found to be family-oriented and pleasantly hospitable. I felt myself divided between cultures—wanting to find ways to help women like my host feel safer in public, and defend Arab culture against ill-informed attacks. It was difficult to do both.

Inspirational Quote:

Douglas Adams – “I love deadlines. I like the whooshing sound they make as they fly by.”

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